we'll play with my hat on

i know this game
and i still want it

looks like ee's a knee breaker
so? even better!
i can exercise my new
theories
both of us will play
ping pong during the day
the loser will swear at
the winner, who will
fuck ee before leaving
we'll take partners
and be kind enemies
we'll keep the table
green and white
we'll bump
and injure knees

we'll rest in the evening
what's my detail, doctor?
what's her detail? wait,
maybe i know
i'll crawl on the mirror
up to ee's knees

we will kiss
we will hate
we will die alive
be a lover of mine, monster!
keep playing. let's keep playing,
even if my theories prove wrong

lame game

i catch your eyes
catching mine
nothing
was it the words
coming out from
my mouth?
was it my mouth -
which moves at my
brain's command?
was it my white lace?
or my curls?
nothing?

i say things you pretend
you can say back
you spell formulaic words
you think i want to hear

"i'm all yours from now on,"
said you. ah, you!
"what should i say, thank you?"
you laugh uneasy laughs
you can't lie better,
can you?
admiration
differentia
may i shrug it off
my shoulders?
this is too predictable
this is too sweet
this is so you-people

one of these days
i'll stop passing judgments
i'll come towards you
i will touch you

the hell with angry glares
we'll break nothing -
almost
no need to fret
my want of you is strictly
limited. our rent is
almost due

x devalued

we don't need us,
not anymore
we have our own depths
too deep for each of us
to dive into without
damage
safety, one-life-ness,
it doesn't decode
as it used to
i have seeds inside
my earth, you have
chlorophylls elsewhere
to sing for with your
warm secret codes
your sickness,
or its illusion,
is only a night's
drunkenness
i've got my change
spent on smalls,
cigarettes,
stuffed animals
my name you call
only in the dark
it hits the wall -
cold, uncaring wall
you wondered,
you wished, but
you didn't touch
i did, i did then. so,
though i smelled your
ghost in the bus
yesterday afternoon,
i took no steps

you should remain one
with no material substance
i'm your reasonable mute